should the email listed as where to forward my emails, by my actual apple id? i havent seen this before.
We understand that you have some questions related to Sign in with Apple. It is normal that it forwards your content to the Apple ID so that you still receive it. Just the email that is provided to the third-party is the alias, not the true Apple ID. This protects your actual email from being shared, such as on mailing lists, unknowingly.
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